It turns out that all I really needed to do was hold myself up in my craft room and use my hands to make pretty things. I still have my bouts with anxiety but it’s been so peaceful and relaxing for me lately. I’ve noticed a difference and so has my poor husband who has been put in the middle of it. Talking to loved ones about the situation with my brother-in-law has helped as well. I’ve established that our home is my safe zone and I have the right to not want him there if he’s not going to respect me. There really is no talking to him about anything and I won’t waste my time talking about him anymore. I feel so free.
I’ve also made the decision to pursue my art and crafting ventures. Everyone has been so supportive with their kind words and actions. It’s been so fun seeing people purchase and displaying my work. It’s truly unreal. I’m taking small steps to get things going and I’m even setting goals for myself. As motivation, I set a goal to pay for a mini vacation for our 1 year anniversary. I want to be able to say that I contributed to this marriage. My husband tells me everyday that I’m doing an amazing job but I need this for myself.
I was patient and tried screen printing again. I think it turned out so well and it was so much fun! I printed my design on tea towels and I hope to have them for sale soon.
I took the time to brand myself. I wanted to reflect my personality by hand-drawing it.
I also made some new art and I’m collecting them to put up for sale. I’m really looking forward to joining upcoming craft shows. I want to get myself out there and break out of my shell. I even thought about applying to the Renegade Handmade Craft Show in my hometown of Brooklyn, NY. I doubt I’ll be accepted because they get high volume of applicants but I’m learning that you have to put yourself out there to grow. Here’s to trying!