In 2017 I said goodbye to one of the greatest loves of my life. Which will lead me into a year of more goodbyes.
Goodbye to expectations of happiness so that I can truly appreciate the moments when they come.
Goodbye to dreams so that we can better understand real life and make the most of it.
Goodbye to making time for more so that we can slow down and love what we have.
And more personal goodbyes like, letting go of the desire to travel (for now) because you realized that having living children and making a world with them is closer to your heart than seeing it.
Saying goodbye to the idea that a family can only be made in one way.
So, 2018 will follow 2017 with more goodbyes and possibly many more heartbreaks because this is real life. But I’m willing to welcome what joy it may bring as well.
And to my baby boy, my Mattie, I might be saying goodbye to the year that took you away from me but I’m welcoming a lifetime of living in the blessing of your sweet memory.