There are a few things about me that do not need to be said. One, I really want to start a family. Two, I am shy, awkward and often reticent. It has become increasingly obvious that in order for the first to happen, I have to somehow conquer the latter. Let me share something with you.
I suffer from fertility issues. I’m sure, by now, you were able to gather that. I’m often shy about a lot of things but I was never shy of my grief or my love for the two children I lost. But, I have never been able to allow myself to really say it to many people out loud. Having a baby does not come easy for me. And because of that, I have to see fertility doctors. I have been for three years. Wow.
In this struggle, It has also become clear that a family can be made in many ways. One way in particular is adoption. But, (yes another but) adoption costs money. Money that is worth it but it still cost money. Money that we don’t have lying around. We have always had a heart for adoption so, it is a journey we look forward to. We are still able to get pregnant, we’re not a lost cause on that front, but why not give another little life a home full of so much love to give? We are a long way away from that path but it is one that we are eager to take with our whole hearts.
So why am I telling you all of this? Firstly, many of you have been so incredibly kind to us during these difficult times in our lives. Secondly, we really need your help. No, I’m not asking you for money. I’m asking that maybe you might want to be in my tribe.
We love our friends and family but unfortunately, our circle is small. Very small.
You know the saying “It takes a village to raise a child”? Well, I am in need of a Tribe before the child comes along. It sounds very needy, I know, but there is such a sadness in loneliness and the journey toward parenthood is so lonely for me. I don’t have a tribe rooting for me. I don’t have people ready to pick me up when I fall. There are a few of you ladies who have responded to my troubles the minute it hits social media, you know who you lovelies are. I’m just asking for a tribe to cheer along side me. I will be forever be thankful.
Are you ready to be a part of my tribe?
To sound like a broken record, fertility doctors and adoption cost money. It is something we are willing to work for and we thought, why not make money in ways that we love? I’m planning to start a new online store specifically to fund our happy future. The name of the store will be called i love you too. I’ll give more details as I start the process but this is where my tribe comes in.
I have very little self-esteem. I am riddled with self-doubt. I’m not really sure why but it’s a crippling habit that has prevented me from being great. Can you help me? Whether it be words of inspiration or resources to aid me in building my self-esteem. I feel like I am making a very important step by reaching out and asking for help. I want to be able to offer my children a village and I would be proud to have you be a part of it. I know that it will required me to do a lot of growing and to be very diligent so that I can offer myself as a worthy person to fight along side of.
I am willing. I ask, are you?